I sit in my room
To contemplate
All the reasons why
Why am I here, why must I live
Through these grieving
times
Overwhelmed by hurt
Deep inside my soul
A quick ending to this all
I lose my self-control
With the noose clutched
in my hands
You can't understand
This blatant travesty
Has become part of me
Drifting through the seas of
sorrow
Condemned to
Fade away from my life,
From the lies
I place the rope around my throat
And close my
eyes
Falling down towards the ground
The choking sounds
Finally I will see the way
Though something went wrong
I am
still alive
Trapped in misery
Forever, in agony
They find me hanging
From a tree
Bleeding, pleading
Please don't set
me free
Releasing the rope
From around my swollen neck
They bring me down
Refusing to let me rest
Why didn't they
leave
Me in my misery
For all the world to see
They must hate me
They place me in a room
No windows I could see
They
think insanity
Is what ails me
They test me everyday
But can't see the way
Into my barren mind
To see what they could
find
I fall into a state
They call it catatonia
So helpless,
They have left me there
Never to awake
But they have
made
A great mistake
Drifting through an endless sea
Condemned to
Fade away from my life,
From the lies
A
dormant sleep that won't last,
To their surprise
I will awake from this state,
From this pain
Finally, they will see the
way